I don’t know what’s been going on with me lately, I’m all jumbled up in my mind. I’m not even sure what I want anymore.. I’ve got my priorities all mixed up. Friday, my phone fell in the toilet , and today my laptop wont even charge. I don’t know if this is karma or no, but if it is, it sure is killing me. I’m not even sure what i did to deserve this. I’m not even sure what’s next.. my car? There’s this great guy,I’ve met lately.. but sad part is that he left tonight, he was one of the greatest guys i’ve ever met in my entire life. it was different honestly, being treated right. I just need to calm myself down a little. I’ve been doing nothing but partying, but why? is it for me? or is it because I want to fit in? Is this partying all the time really me? I really love the scene honestly, but honestly I havent even been doing all the bad things I was a few months back. I luckily have my mother who sticks by my side. I’ve been having the worst mood swings ever and i can’t even figure out why. I have like three best friends, but are they really even my friends? I dont know anymore. I mean one of them likes to talk shit about me so it can make herself look better. and the other two always stick by my side but for some reason i feel like at times, they dont want me around. maybe i just need some time to myself, maybe thats why my phone and laptop are broken. Maybe i should just sit there on my bed, and enjoy a movie or book. I used to have so many goals, i mean i still do, but not like the ones i used to aspire for. Where’s life gone? graduation is stressing me out considering the fact that I’m leaving and about to find out if i can handle myself on my own. I don’t know what to do, i just need some time to myself i guess..
venting..
